Hi. Things haven't been good. And it's all my fault. My fault because :
1. I had to judge people like as if I'm so perfect.
2. I had to be a two-faced freak because i can't decide whether I want to be friends with this person or not.
3. I have to keep secrets and get involved in conspiracies.
4. I have a very lousy character as an individual.
5. I still have not learnt from my mistakes after what had happened in church.
And all this probably due to :
1. Me trapped in the past, afraid to lose my friends.
2. Didn;t have true friends in primary school because I was considered 'special' until p5.
3. The devil's trying to spite me to break my relationship with God.
4. I haven't been spending enough time with god.
And now all i'm going to think about is exams, performances and duties. I don't want to go too deep into friendship anymore. What;s the point, it takes up your energy, time and in the end everything will go wrong.
Psalm 91
He who dwells in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the almighty.
I will say of the lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress"\; My god, in him I will trust."
Surely he shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence. He shall cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shielc\d and buckler.
You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays watse at noonday.
A thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; but it shall not come near you.
Only with your eyes shall you look, and see the reward of the wicked.
Because you have made the lord, who is my refuge, even the most high, your dwelling place, no evil shall befall you, nor shall any plaque come near your dwelling;
For he shall give his angels charge over you, to keep you in alll your ways.
In their hands they shall bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone.
You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra, the young lion and the serpant you shall tremble underfoot.
"Because he has set his love upon me, therefore i will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because has known my name.
He shall call upon me, and i will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I shall satisfy him, and show him my salvation."
